Engaging in a personal practice is really really hard.
If this has been your experience, it doesn’t mean you’re a failure. It means you’re a person.
No matter how simple your practice might be, it’s exceedingly difficult to keep it up with any consistency, for any length of time. Because there are just so many things to do in a day. Or so your ego leads you to believe.
And it’s true – our lives are very busy. But why do we shunt personal work to the bottom of our list?
Because your ego likes things exactly the way they are.
Your ego is clever, subtle, and knows all of your weak points.
Your ego knows what to whisper in your ear to get its way.
Chances are your intentions are good. But your ego’s termites have been eating away at the foundations of those intentions for a long time.
I’m not writing this with any sense of condemnation. My ego is as wily and relentless as Lex Luthor. He’s as clever as Walter White. He picks me up and slams me down and pins me to the mat with the force of Andre the Giant. Daily.
It helps to have someone to be accountable to – a therapist, a coach, a friend, a community that’s engaged in personal work. Check in regularly. Even if you’ve failed. Especially if you’ve failed. Be open and curious about why you’ve failed.
It’s no sin to have failed. You’re up against a truly mighty obstacle: a lifetime’s entrenched habits.
Even the smallest step counts.
More tiny steps follow.